There is a question that seems to linger in the back of my mind, "Is there someone made specifically for me?" I think about this most often just before I go to bed, when I'm talking to God, and imagining maybe for a moment a man riding upon his white horse, and then, haulting to a stop as he sees me walk by. This little daydream can last for a flash of a second or it can metamorph itself into a modern day fairytale where this unknown prince pursues me and sweeps me off my feet. Of course, I realize that I'm staring at a ceiling covered in stars that I bought at Hobby Lobby, I can hear my neighbor's country music, and my little daydream bubble pops, but then I remember that God is still there, listening to my every thought. So I hang on to my question, since afterall, it's one that I'm still hoping God will be faithful with like every other question that has happened to take residence in my mind. "Has God tailor made someone for me?"
When I ask this question, I assume that most people can understand just what I mean. Is love, marriage, a radom incident where a boy and girl meet, fall in love, and live happily ever, and we make the decision of who and when or does God ultimatley create someone specifically for you, and introduces them when He knows the timeing is just right? I prefer believing in the latter of the two, and since there are so many verses in the bible that discuss God having "ordained all your days before one ever came to be," I'm positive that that certainly includes the person you spend the rest of your life with.
I always refer back to Adam and Eve when lying in bed. Imagine it. The moment God created Eve. Of course, he knew Adam's heart and he knew the desires hiding in each corner. Ironically, Adam, who had these desires, was completely unable to quench them without God, which answers my question that God is in control of satisfying our heart's accoring to his will and plan for our lives. In this case, Adam's desire for companionship is also God's, which ultimately leads to the creation of Eve, and as Genesis goes, even Eve wasn't just thrown together, she was specifically taken our of Adam, the man she was made to love and be loved by. This again, answers another question of mine. God tailor made Eve just for Adam. I love that God used Adam's rib to make Eve, it creates a beutiful connection and union between them, the idea that they really are two people becoming one. As Mathew Henry wrote, "Eve was not taken out of Adam's head to top him, neither out of his feet to be trampled by him, but out of his side to be equal with him, under his arm to be protected by him, and near his heart to be loved by him". Eve was everything that Adam could have hoped for, and more. Of course, this was in a perfect world with no sin and Adam and Eve were complete in God, and so, that would surely make their relationship one that I can't even begin to imagine other than the selfless love that God has for me, but still, it leads me to believe that God has made someone for me. I'm only more strongly encouraged after reading the story of Issac and Rebekah in Genesis 24.
Issac sends a servant to find him a wife, which would seem like he is allowing someone else, or circumstances to bring his wife to him; yet, by a series of events it is apparant that God was orchestrating the entire affair. My favorite part of the entire story is when Isaac, who is out in the fields, looks up and sees Rebekah and she too looks up and sees Isaac. I mean really, that sounds like a secene from a Romance movie. I can imagine Isaac meditating in the field, quietly thinking to himself, perhaps asking the same question that I ask myself, " is there someone Tailor made for me?" "Will I love the woman who comes back, will she love me, is God such a wonderful God that he would do such a thing for me?" And then, at that moment, right when he wonders if God loves him so much to give him what his heart desires, he looks up and sees a woman approaching on a camel, Rebekah. The woman God has brought to Isaac, the woman who probably has the same question in her heart. There isn't a doubt in my mind that God brought Isaac and Rebekah together, for at the very end, Rebekah becomes Isaac's wife and he loves her. God provided.
I don't know who he is, if God's plan for me includes a husband, but I am certain that those who are in God's will are not randomly chosen as wifes or husbands. If God is faithful, then He is faithful. He does not pick and choose, he mereley waits for when his timing will bring him most glory. Even when it comes to love. Love between a man and a woman is such a testimony to the love between God and the church, between God and us. A Godly husband reveals to a wife a closer intamacy with God by reflecting his character: God loves us unconditionally, he is jealous of our hearts, he wants to know us, he wants us to know him, he protects us, cares for us, and guards our hearts as does a Godly husband. I'm not saying that a husban is God, by no means can a man live up to God's standards as Jesus did, but what I am saying is that an earthly love between man and wife can be a testiony of God's love and an example of how God loves us. As it goes, God is our first love and our perfect bridegroom, and he doesn't give us mediocre, he gives us more than we can fathom, and so, at the moment I really can't fathom someone tailor made just for me, but I don't underestimate God, I simply can't gather in my mind the increadible love he has for me and the incredible gift of marriage...I don't so much question a tailor made love, I wonder upon it.
